Yeah, That's a No

Spotted all day yesterday and started a full flow today. I'm thinkin' this cycle is a Negator Skeletor.

Trying not to think about it and stay busy with work and holiday preparations. Tonight's cooking plan: baking up the My Mahtha Honey-Walnut Coin Cookies (I made the dough yesterday), and baking another of Sugarlaws' Apple-Banana Cakes.

I've been able to stay on the lower-carb diet throughout the past 4 weeks and will be continuing that, (with some allowances made for holiday food) hoping to keep my weight down for the next cycle and avoiding the possibility of gestational diabetes (fingers broken from crossing them for the gestational part).

I'm definitely looking forward to being able to exercise again. I've had to refrain since I started spotting, and, miracle of miracles, I actually miss it!

Resting & Cooking

Who knows what my body is doing? I sure don't. The pink streaks stopped after two hours yesterday.

I kept taking my Prom.etri.um, thinking it can't hurt to keep taking it.

My nurse confirmed my thoughts that this really could be anything: random spotting, my period, who knows. She said that I should keep taking the Prom.e.tri.um and I should not exercise or do anything strenuous and that hopefully, we'll get a great beta result. The beta will remain on Friday morning as previously scheduled.

Will be on my feet a lot all this week at night since I'm doing lots and lots of cooking for Rosh Hashanah. I'm going to try to modify my actions so that I'm taking good breaks and putting my feet up as much as I can.

Yesterday, I made two Carrot-Zucchini Kugels (pudding/casserole). I had hoped to get in a Potato Kugel in there, but I started cooking too late in the evening to throw that in as well. I'll cook that tonight and I also plan to make an Apple-Banana Cake recipe that I found at Sugarlaws.

Tomorrow, I plan to make Honey-Walnut Cookies from a Mahtha (aka Martha Stewart) recipe that went over well last year. Thursday night, I'm planning to make two different versions of challah, one from Baking & Books, the other from The Meatless Chulent.

Wish me luck!

TP Tango

TMI Post - so look away if you wish...

So, we're 11 dpDIUI (that's 11 days past the donor IUI, well, 10 or 11, depending on where you start counting). I've been feeling increasingly dizzy, and increasingly nauseated. I also have intermittent bouts of breast tenderness.

I've been trying not to compare this 2 week wait to my last one since:
1) This time, I'm on prometrium (progesterone suppositories) and that may change things;
2) I can't remember when I started feeling early pregnancy symptoms and in what intensity last time;
3) Every pregnancy is different; and
4) Last time, we really didn't get a great outcome, so why measure using that yardstick?
Of course, it's impossible not to compare symptoms.

When I just went to the bathroom, I got some yellow/pink streaks and a very small red clot. Not sure if that means something or anything. I haven't called my nurse because what's she gonna do? It's wait-and-see mode here.

Any suggestions? Should I be calling my nurse?

Beta (pregnancy blood test) is scheduled for Friday morning, 8:30 AM.
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Edited:
An hour later, a trip to the bathroom revealed red streaks. On a regular cycle, I'd be getting my period today (my ovulation was much later than expected), so I'm pretty sure that this is the end for this cycle.

No use in calling my nurse today, as she doesn't return calls after 3:30 and, clearly, this ain't an emergency.

Tasks (Updated!)

G-D put me on this earth to complete a certain number of things.

Right now, I am so far behind that I will never die.

I'm pretty sure that the above will be my motto for the next few weeks. What follows is lists, lists and more lists. (Of course, all of the below is so that I don't drive myself crazy in the 2WW. We went in for dIUI 2.1 and 2.2 on Thursday and Friday last. I don't want to get my hopes up. I don't want to plan anything. I don't even want to think about it. Except I do.)

The List of Lists
1) JD's Birthday List
2) Holiday List
3) Chez Jendeis List
4) Clean the House List (an offshoot of the Chez Jendeis List)

JD's Birthday List
-Get JD a birthday present!! (His birthday is on Saturday).
-Figure out plans for JD's birthday
-Call hot air balloon company and make an appointment (if not Saturday, push to October).

Holiday List (Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur)
-Use up freezer food to make room for holiday food
-Buy groceries for holidays
-Start cooking for holidays

Chez Jendeis List
-Find tax stuff and send to accountant NOW
-Clean the house!!
-Make grooming appointment for The Boy
-Make yearly physical appointment for The Boy
-Pay bills
-Go to bank to deal with expiring CDs
-Move monthly mortgage savings to car payment
-Buy china cabinet
-Buy forks
-Buy new pillows
-Update 101/1001 list by eliminating tasks that will not/can not be completed and replacing them with tasks that can be completed

Clean the House List
-Put dishes in dishwasher
-Clear off my bathroom counter
-Clean bathrooms
-Have JD clear off his bathroom counter
-Laundry
-Pick up dry cleaning
-Have JD empty his suitcase
-Find new cleaning service
-Clean off coffee table and bring to Mom & Dad's
-Put rubber discs on sofa legs
-Organize front closet
-Put plastic drawers in front closet

At Zero

Went in for blood work today and beta hcg is down to zero. The blood work merely confirmed what I thought already, given that the bleeding had stopped by Saturday. We're cleared to start dIUI #2 as soon as I start my next cycle.

JD and I have been working to be happy, with ourselves and each other. Our joint therapy session on Sunday was somewhat traumatic for me. I felt that both therapists were ganging up on me, either blaming me for JD's behavior or saying that I was elevating it due to the grief from the miscarriage and the pregnancy hormones, OR somehow saying that I wasn't really grieving the miscarriage, like I wasn't showing the right emotions or something (a la Camus' L'Etranger (please excuse the lack of accents - I just don't feel like looking up the code)).

Going to see Jim Gaffigan tonight and I'm quite excited about it. I need to laugh.