Thursday, November 13, 2008


The following is just me venting and doing a brain dump, so please take it with a grain of salt.

I hate everyone and everything. Eff all y'all, you g-dd-mn shiny, happy people.

I'm cold, my feet are freezing. I feel like I'm taking the Bar again. It was so cold in that arena, you could see your breath. In July, people!!!

I'm supposed to take this new pill in the morning and in the afternoon, and I'm just not managing it. I'm a total f-ck up. Plus, I'm getting better without it (HA), so I'd like to stop it.

My back hurts, my shoulders hurt, my neck hurts. Depression hurts, I'm not on Cymbalta, so it ain't helping me.

My nails are short and I can't find the time to polish them.

I came up with a great idea for homemade holiday gifts and it's not as easy as I wanted it to be and I think it's going to take a lot longer than I thought to do them all and I'm worried about it. But if it works it will be awesome and it's a good gift and even though I'm spending money to make it, it's still a LOT less than I previously spent and the savings will go to the Debt Snowball. (Not that we're in a bunch of debt, just that I'm going to add it to the next car payment).

I need to take a shower desperately. My hair hurts and itches because it's dirty. I am disgusting.

John Dear returned my audiobook to the library because it was 3 days late and earning fines. I wasn't able to renew it because someone had the book on hold. Except I was on disc 32 of 36 discs. I don't know when I'll be able to get the book back and I was loving it. Darn it.

JD started work yesterday (yay!) and I'm concerned that there will be a reversion back to me doing everything. I expressed that concern yesterday and he said that he will do his best to continue the partnership we've had going the last couple of months. I'm waiting. I'm not even guardedly or cautiously optimistic -- I'm just waiting.

I don't know why bad things happen to good people, why the caged bird sings or why birds suddenly appear every time you are near.

I am now addicted (again) to Jon and Kate + 8. I love the current commercial that TLC is running with the Jon and Kate smiling at each other in the field. I am a tremendous dork.

Top Chef has started again. Yay! I will be watching the premiere tonight over TiVo.

JD and I exercised last night for 40 minutes. We rocked it hard-core.

I had a three-bean salad with couscous (on the nutritionist's plan) for lunch yesterday and it was legen - wait for it - dary!!! I must figure out how to duplicate this salad (from Jason's Deli). I know that it has: kidney beans, edamame, garbanzo beans, minced red onion, diced red and yellow bell pepper and cilantro. Don't know what the dressing is. If you know, please tell me! I could eat this every day.

We're having a surprise birthday party for my dad (he's turning 65) and making a video documentary about him and he has no idea!! I'm so excited!

I've got the Sanford & Son theme song in my head and can't get it out. It's catchy.


Searching for Serenity said...

So much to comment I'll focus on the good things, because Cap'm just gave me a lecture this morning about staying positive. Hopefully you and I can bounce good vibes off one another.

1. I LOVE J&K+8 too. You're not a dork. The new commercial makes me teary. They are so stinkin' cute.

2. I had no idea Top Chef was starting until last night. I was sleepy, so I went to bed early. I'll catch up on a rerun later this week.

3. Way to go on the workout!

4. PLEASE share your three-bean salad. I beg you.

5. Happy Birhday Dad! And fantastic idea. He'll love it. I hope happy tears are involved.

I hope you have a good day and keep those tosies warm.

Jen said...

I like Jon and Kate too. But I don't know why I like it. There is a new show called Real Simple, Real Life that I really like. It's on Fridays at eight, I think. (I DVR, so I am not sure.)

I think homemade Christmas gifts sound great.

Jill said...

What book are you listening to that has 36 disks! WOW!

I love that commercial, too! I don't know why, but I just REALLY REALLY LOVE IT.

Tricia said...

I love you. that's all.. the good and the bad. It all made me smile.. (And hungry. Now I want 3 bean salad. Where did you get it? )

Oh god damn... wait... I am being one of those shiny happy people!!!! Fuck. Now you hate me.

Okay.. here I will be grumpy and mean... tee hee.

Take a shower, will yah..Now my scalp itches too! LOl. Just kidding.

I also think that maybe the sandford and son song should be on the bad list all together.

Ack.. I hate being mean.. so anyway.. here are some more comments...

Can you get the audio book on loan from another library in your county? Mine does an interlibrary lending system so you can get stuff from other libraries delieverd to yours, free!

I am also glad that you are feeling a little better and think maybe you could switch that comment down to the good and bad list.

P.S. I liked your post and enjoyed responding to it. I was feeling a little weepy and found myself to be funny just now. I know many won't share the opinion.. but, in my head... I chuckle.

Io said...

I love the idea for your dad's birthday! But yeah, I hate everyone and everything too.

~Jess said...


What a great idea for your Dad! I love homemade gifts, but I always end up in over my head.

theclam said...

You go girl for the 40 minutes of exercise! KUDOS :)

And I'm sure your Dad is going to lurve his surprise party!


annacyclopedia said...

Thanks for coming out of the dork closet on the J&K+8 thing. I am in love with those commercials and although I hated the show at first, now I watch it every chance I get. So I am weepily, dorkily with you.

Anonymous said...

mixed beans, yellow pepper, red pepper, red onion, celery, cilantro, salt, balsamic, italian

kirke said...

Top Chef is the only thing that gets me out of bed on Wednesdays.

36 discs is some book :) I love listening to audio books on my commute.

bendingbackwards said...

Sending you a HUG!

Hope the video documentary is going well. And ditto on sharing the 3 bean salad recipe!

whataboutmyeggs said...

I love J&K+8! Sounds that you're taking the good with the bad, that's a good thing to me. Hope your dad's bday goes well.

Anonymous said...

Anonomous is right... all the dressing is seems to be Italian dressing misxed with vinegar =)