Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thank You House

***Possible spoilers from House, so if you are planning to see it, come back later.***

Dear This Week's House,

Thank you for helping me to realize that, in order to act normal become sane get better, I must actually take my pills.

Unlike House's roommate, I was not refusing to take my pills this time because they stop me from being me. (Though G-D knows that we've gone down that road so many times they are dedicating a rest stop in my honor. Now with a Bob Evans!) I also was not not taking my pills out of some scheme to turn all the patients in the asylum against their doctors. Instead, I went through one of my periods of just not taking them.
Yes, this is stupid. And reckless, and unhealthy. Yes, this caused me to become a weeping, snivelling, ill-tempered, non-coping mess.

So, I'm back on - because I do want to get better. And with only one dose in me, I feel like I can actually handle life. I took my meds yesterday, I'm taking them today and I plan to take them tomorrow. That's as far as I'm going to go with my planning, because the longer term promises have not been working for me.

8 comments:

annacyclopedia said...

It was a pretty great episode, and I like it even more if it is helpful to you. I'm glad you're back on your meds and feeling better. And thanks for talking about it - you're awesome!

Suzy said...

I loved that episode of House. And with that said I need to remember to take my pill today. I forgot yesterday.

Hope you feel better soon!

FunkyFrum said...

i have never seen house, but i also always forget to take my pills. it is grrrrrrrrrr because then a doctor says "did you take them" and i'm all oops!

Brandy said...

I stopped taking my pills about a month ago and then wondered why I was a mess at work feeling like I was going to cry for no reason. Duh! So I'm back on the pills. I really want to get off of them because they have totally killed my sex drive. But I've acknowledged that I need them for now.

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Lorza said...

It does suck to have to feel dependant on a little pill...I fought SADD for many years, until I finally let myself realize it is okay. It is okay to have help- in whatever way it comes.

I hope you really start feeling better soon. ((hugs))

LJ said...

I'm totally at peace with my likely need to take a pill for quite a long time, if not forever...

A very similar thought went through my head during the show on Monday. I love me some House.

PJ said...

That was SUCH a good episode! LOVE that show!!!

And good for you. :)

sonja said...

I just watched that episode on my Tivo and really enjoyed it. I am really glad it helped you want to take your pills again, too.