Dear This Week's House,
Thank you for helping me to realize that, in order to act normal become sane get better, I must actually take my pills.
Unlike House's roommate, I was not refusing to take my pills this time because they stop me from being me. (Though G-D knows that we've gone down that road so many times they are dedicating a rest stop in my honor. Now with a Bob Evans!) I also was not not taking my pills out of some scheme to turn all the patients in the asylum against their doctors. Instead, I went through one of my periods of just not taking them.
Yes, this is stupid. And reckless, and unhealthy. Yes, this caused me to become a weeping, snivelling, ill-tempered, non-coping mess.
So, I'm back on - because I do want to get better. And with only one dose in me, I feel like I can actually handle life. I took my meds yesterday, I'm taking them today and I plan to take them tomorrow. That's as far as I'm going to go with my planning, because the longer term promises have not been working for me.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thank You House
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Depression,
I'm On Drugs,
Television
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It was a pretty great episode, and I like it even more if it is helpful to you. I'm glad you're back on your meds and feeling better. And thanks for talking about it - you're awesome!
I loved that episode of House. And with that said I need to remember to take my pill today. I forgot yesterday.
Hope you feel better soon!
i have never seen house, but i also always forget to take my pills. it is grrrrrrrrrr because then a doctor says "did you take them" and i'm all oops!
I stopped taking my pills about a month ago and then wondered why I was a mess at work feeling like I was going to cry for no reason. Duh! So I'm back on the pills. I really want to get off of them because they have totally killed my sex drive. But I've acknowledged that I need them for now.
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It does suck to have to feel dependant on a little pill...I fought SADD for many years, until I finally let myself realize it is okay. It is okay to have help- in whatever way it comes.
I hope you really start feeling better soon. ((hugs))
I'm totally at peace with my likely need to take a pill for quite a long time, if not forever...
A very similar thought went through my head during the show on Monday. I love me some House.
That was SUCH a good episode! LOVE that show!!!
And good for you. :)
I just watched that episode on my Tivo and really enjoyed it. I am really glad it helped you want to take your pills again, too.
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