Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Two Years

It's been two years since we started trying. Two interminably long years. I never thought it would take this long. Don't know why I never thought it would take a long time, I mean, we knew there were issues in that area, but we both thought maybe it'll take as long as four months and away we go.

It's been two years and we're just getting our first real chance to have a baby. I'd love to believe that this is gonna work this cycle, but I've been reading blogs for too long. Maybe I'm kidding myself. It's like I'm two different people: one who's a total believer and one who's an incredible cynic. I want to be the believer, but only if it works. That cynical enough for you?

Been nauseated all day; for me, that means that ovulation is about a week off. Right on schedule. Bought the Answer OPKs and will start using those on Sunday.

I want this so desperately. Please G-D, let this work.

Oh, and G-D? The CAPS are playing tonight in Game 7 and they could sure use your help, so, um, anything you can do there would be appreciated.

13 comments:

annacyclopedia said...

Oh, my dear friend. I remember my first "real chance" cycle so clearly. In many ways it was the hardest, because there was so much wrapped up in it. It's wonderful and terrifying all at once.

Thinking the best thoughts for you this cycle. And just so you know - I've been cheering for the Caps since I found out you liked them and really only because you like them. Manny keeps me updated as he watches absolutely everything during the playoffs, and me, well, I only watch if I want to be in the same room as my husband these days. So I'm doing what I can in that department, too. Go Caps!

~Jess said...

Yea, I know that feeling of having such high hopes, but knowing what the chances really are. We did our first DIUI after 2 1/2 years of trying. I'm so hoping this is first one works for you guys!

Jen said...

I really hope this one works for you.

Hillary said...

I think we're all the believer and the cynic when it comes to fertility -- I hate that combo (but love the way you put it)!! I am soooo hoping this works for you!!

JJ said...

Oh hun....this is an anniversary thats not fun to celebrate. I am so hopeful for you.

Oh, just had to say: Go Canes;0)

Parenthood For Me said...

It's amazing how fast the time goes by. I know we never expected years to pass w/o a pregnancy. Sending you well wishes and good thoughts.

LJ said...

Two years. Wow, just...wow. I keep thinking of you guys this cycle!

I Believe in Miracles said...

I totally hear you on the believer vs. cynic. Isn't that called a realist?

I'm wishing you lots of luck this cycle!!

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Not a fun milestone, but hopefully this will be the one. I got pregnant my first DIUI at 2 1/2 years trying so I'm hoping you do the same!

Tricia said...

I am praying for you!!

A Few Good Sperm said...

I started "trying" in May 2007 myself, so I'm right there with ya sister! Oh how I wish I could go back in time and demand a semen analysis right away! It could have saved us so much time.

Geohde said...

With you on the first real chance feeling. We wasted a year on clomid with severe MFI- wish we hhadn't, because those cycles sucked.

xx

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tomi said...

I wish you all the very best. It's been slightly more than 3 years for us and it is a little unnerving how time seems to just fly by.

ICLW.