Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Under Threat of Violence

BFF is quite ticked with me as I have not been updating regularly. Apparently, her position as one of Liberty's Champions (she's a lawyer too) requires that she read my updated blog constantly.

Nothing happening here and that's really all the news. Nothing is happening. I'm

  1. Still alive
  2. Still in my depression
  3. Still trying to lose weight
  4. Still trying to decide between IVF with John Dear's sperm and an IUI with donor sperm
  5. (and therefore) Still no baby
  6. Still uncertain about my marriage (giving some explanation to #2, but giving confusion to #4 and #5)
  7. (which is mostly unrelated to) Still having an unemployed husband in a terrible economy.

Boo hoo, woe is me. How do I blow raspberries at myself?

19 comments:

Jen said...

I hope things look up soon. But I am glad to know that you are still alive.

Hillary said...

I've been wondering how you were doing. Thanks for the update -- I hope things are looking up for you soon.

FunkyFrum said...

well thank goodness for number 1. i was worried

noswimmers said...

Sending hugs & love your way...

Chelle said...

((HUGS))

Leah said...

And yet you find time to send an old lady some flowers. You are the best!

I'm glad you are alive, sorry that you are depressed, and saddened that all of life's infertility-related mysteries haven't been resolved.

whataboutmyeggs said...

Glad to hear #1, but sorry you're so upset right now. Sending hugs and good thoughts your way

VA Blondie said...

Glad you are alive. Keep breathing and take things one day at a time.

I had a period of time when Hubby was out of work, too. We were at a point where we had to decide whether or not to do IVF. I was not happy with where we were living. I started to make changes in my life to make me happy, and this did not make hubby happy. I pretty much said that I was leaving whether he was coming with me, or not. It was really stressful.

It turned out all right. We have moved (together). I started a new job, he started his own business, and we are a whole lot happier. We are even thinking of doing IVF. Who knoew where life can take you?

Try to keep faith. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Fertilized said...

Sounds like you have a good BFF

~Jess said...

Keep your chin up...easier said than done. I'm thinking about and praying for you that things get easier and more bearable.

*hugs*

Lollipop Goldstein said...

You don't blow raspberries at yourself. Sending a hug.

liddy said...

sending you a hug.

theclam said...

Been thinking about you Jen. Glad to hear you're alive... things will come right.

HUGS
xxx

Tricia said...

(((HUGS))) Hang in there.

LJ said...

I think I know the remedy to your situation - lunch when I get back. You can bitch all you want. That or more cowbell. I can't tell which will be better.

annacyclopedia said...

Oh, I've missed you! I am glad things are more or less going ok - at least they're not a lot worse, right? Hang in there, sweetie - and I'm always around if you want to have an email chat.

Big hugs to you.

I Believe in Miracles said...

Hang in there.
~~HUGS~~

A Few Good Sperm said...

Glad to see I'm not the only one struggling with my weight. I wasn't sure they'd do IVF on me either, but my RE said there's no reason it should affect our success rates. Of course he hesitated to tell me that because he didn't want to discourage me from loosing. Anyhow, I can relate, so if you need someone to talk to let me know.

Col @ life by muse said...

Thank you so much for taking the time to comment on my blog about how to be happy and for updating us on how you are.

In the past I had sooo much experience with #2 that my heart so goes out to you. It's actually why I began my blog, I was writing about that and telling my story and sharing what works for me. Those posts are under the category "the d word" if you'd ever like to come check them out.

I used to rate how I felt each day 1 - 10 when I was in the thick of it and now I don't rate my feelings at all, which is a super-good sign because what it means is that there were so many high numbers that I didn't feel the need for the rating system anymore.

I only share this with you so that you know there's light at the end of the tunnel. When I was in it, it felt as if it would be forever, I just couldn't imagine their being an end to it. But the end came and it let go of me. I hope it lets go of you to when you're ready.

Sending hugs,
Col