Monday, June 15, 2009

An Answer?

My beta is up to 152 from 113 on Friday. Obviously, not a good rise.

My doc and nurse are concerned that this is an ectopic pregnancy. I'm going in for blood work and an ultrasound tomorrow (thank goodness that parking is free at my clinic, they'd be making a fortune off me). If we see a sac in the right place, we'll try and let it go on for a couple more days, see what happens. If we don't and it's tubal, we'll have to terminate.

I feel like an ectopic would explain the mild cramping I've been feeling for the past couple of weeks. I've been passing if off as gas, but it could be tubal.

JD has gone off the deep end with worrying and depression; a difference from his way calm stance before that everything would work out because he had willed it to be so. I'm surprisingly calm. I guess I feel like we now have an answer.

24 comments:

becomingwhole said...

I'm not even sure what words would even be appropriate right now. I'm letting you know I'm here. I'm trying to do the internet version of just "being there." I'm so sorry that this is not easier.

Liddy said...

I have no words to say. Just know that I am thinking about you and praying for you. Sending lots of love and hugs. And JD, hugs for you as well.

Lorza said...

awww. That just sucks. {{{HUGS}}}. I am sorry.

Jen said...

No! I hope it isn't ectopic. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

Kristen said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. XOXO

PJ said...

You'll be in my thoughts. Huge hugs.

Melissa G said...

Thank you for the update. I'll be thinking of you, and hoping that everything goes well tomorrow. I'm so sorry.

Clare said...

So sorry to hear this. Stay strong - you'll be in my thoughts tomorrow. Hugs.

Kymberli said...

Shit. Jen, I was praying that your betas would strengthen. I'm so, so sorry. (((HUGS)))

LJ said...

I'm so sorry...it isn't effing fair.

N said...

Crap. I'm sorry. I'm hoping that whatever the case is, it is not too painful - physically or emotionally. *hugs*

Me said...

I will continue to hope for good news for you tomorrow.

Meghan said...

Oh Jendeis, that sucks, just plain sucks. I'm sorry the numbers didn't behave like we wanted them too. I'm hoping you get your answers soon. And of course that it's the answer we all want.

thinking of you guys

JamieD said...

I am so sorry for all you are going through. Holding you in my heart . . .

Somewhat Ordinary said...

I'm so sorry. I'm thinking of you and hoping for the best.

Jen B said...

I'm sorry to hear the sad news. My thoughts will be with you.

VA Blondie said...

So sorry. I hope the scan tomorrow brings better news.

battynurse said...

I'm so sorry. I hope you get some good answers tomorrow.

Leah said...

Dammit, this sucks. I'm so sorry. You are in limbo hell, I've been there many a time. There is nothing pithy or useful that I can say other than I'm sending you thousands of warm hugs. xo

Ms. Perky said...

You know, as always, I'm here for you babe.

Juggling Frogs said...

Jendeis, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Jill said...

oh no! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I still have hope for you.

~Jess said...

I know there are no words that will make any of this easier to deal with, just know that I'm here if you need to talk **((**HUGS**))**

Lollipop Goldstein said...

My heart is with you guys right now. I am just so sorry, Jendeis.