Friday, June 19, 2009

Decreasing

JD and I made it to our appointment this morning with no incidents. The only thing that showed up on the ultrasound was a blood clot. So, we were just in a wait and see till my blood work came back.

My nurse just called and said that my number has started going down on its own, from 160 on Tuesday to 149 today. I'm glad. I much preferred my body to handle this naturally rather than having to go through intervention.

Given the strong cramping that I've been feeling for the past two days, it's likely that I'll begin my period soon.

I'm doing OK. The tears sneak up on me every one in a while, but it's more upset about how many things in our life are screwed up, as opposed to being upset solely about the miscarriage.

JD tried and mostly succeeded at not falling apart on me. It's not that he can't be upset, just that he takes it to the extreme. He's trying. We're both trying.

I'm going to go back in on Sunday for a repeat blood check. My nurse said that if it keeps coming down, they will probably only have me come in once a week till it goes down to zero.

I'll have to lose at least 10 pounds to get back down to the BMI limit for IUI at my clinic. We've got 5 samples in storage. We'll be ready for round 2 soon.

44 comments:

uncomplicateme said...

Giant *hugs*. You seem to be handling all this so well. I know it must be so rough.

Marie said...

I am so sorry.

N said...

I'm sorry.

Searching for Serenity said...

Know that we are all thinking of you during this difficult time. Do something special for yourself this weekend.

Clare said...

Thinking of you during this tough time but I agree with you it's better that your body is handling it naturally. Hugs.

battynurse said...

I'm so sorry.

PJ said...

You know, I think it's even harder when you do get a positive and then things go south. I'm so sorry. However, I'm glad to hear that you're already thinking about round 2. Things will get better.

meandbaby said...

I'm sorry about the loss but happy you won't need intervention. Thinking of you.

Rachel said...

I am so sorry.

Megan said...

I'm so sorry.

Melissa G said...

I'm so very sorry. Take good care of yourself.

JJ said...

Been sending you both warm, peaceful thoughts...Im so sorry that you've had this knock down. We're all here to help you get back up...lots of hugs, sweetie.

VA Blondie said...

So sorry. Sending hugs to you!

becomingwhole said...

hugs
refuah shlemah to your soul

La La said...

I am so sorry that you have to go through this hun. Sending you big, big ((hugs)) and love today.

Me said...

I'm sorry. I know the disappointment. The feeling like of deflatedness. I also understand felling like this is one more turd on a big sh!tpile. And last but not least, I understand looking forward to get you through. ((HUGS))

meinsideout said...

I am so sorry.

Hillary said...

Jendeis, I am SO SORRY. I have been out of town this past week and was so sad to read this news. I am sorry and send big ((hugs)) out to you.

Jo said...

No words.

Just hugs.

Jo

In Due Time said...

Big hugs to you honey. I'm sorry. :-(

barrenisthenewblack said...

I wish I could take away the hurt and upset. Thanks for your honesty in your blog.
I'd like you to accept an Honest Scrap award
http://barrenisthenewblack.wordpress.com/2009/06/21/you-like-me/

tireegal68 said...

oh, wow, I am so sorry. I hope you are able to do it naturally and I am sending you thoughts of healing and hope. ((HUGS)))

YouLikeMe? said...
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WiseGuy said...

Rough deal....that is what is happening... I am so sorry that you have to be handling this... I wish you best luck for your weight loss and next IUI. God Bless....

theclam said...

Gosh Jendeis, you seem so.... calm about it all... I'm so sorry you're dealing with this...

You're in my thougths and prayers.

Here's to # 2 being THE ONE!!!

xxx

Michele said...

sending warm thoughts... from lfca

nh said...

I'm sorry - look after each other.

andhereweare said...

Still thinking of you. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

noswimmers said...

Continued love & hugs to you, my dear.

Miriam said...

Came here via LCFA, and wanted to say that I'm so sorry for your loss right now. I also wanted to tell you that the piece you wrote in your previous post:

""You can go if you need to go. You don't have to stay because I want you to stay. You can go if you need to go. I'm letting you go. I love you."

...it's just beautiful and breaks my heart all at the same time. You are a very brave, strong woman, and I'm deeply humbled reading that. I hope you are well physically with your loss, and wishing you well for your Round 2.

~Miriam
(HannahWeptSarahLaughed)

Shinejil said...

I'm so sorry you're facing this. I hope things resolve swiftly and you find comfort and hope in the coming weeks.

Echloe said...

I'm so so sorry for your loss. HUGS!!

ICLW

nutmeg96 said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. :( I've been there too and it's not easy. I hope your next BFP is the one that sticks.

ICLW

Kristen said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. Lots of thoughts and prayers coming your way. XOXO

Melissa G said...

I was hoping we'd hear from you, but I completely understand your absence. Just know there are a lot of people thinking of you.

Take all the time you need.

A Mom in Jacksonville, FL said...

I endured a miscarriage in January, and am still trying to process the whole ordeal.

I admire your strength! Wishing you luck with round 2.

*ICLW*

Liddy said...

Sending you love today.

HUGS!

Stacie said...

Here via L&F. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love and hugs your way.

Beautiful Mess said...

I'm truly sorry about this whole thing. I really love your "intention", it's so beautiful. Sending you many hugs and lots of peace.
*HUGS and ICLW*

Geohde said...

I am so sorry, sometimes there are no words...

g

Liv said...

I am just so sorry you are having to deal with this. It was so exciting to see your positive test result and I'm so sad for you now.

Praying for a better result at round 2. Good luck my dear.
-ICLW

Artblog said...

I'm sorry you're going through this :( Wishing you luck and success with the next attempt. HUGS

Lorza said...

Lots of hugs sweetie. If I was up there I would take you out for a little distraction. :( I am glad JD is holding up, but I know you are stressed with all of the other weights surrounding him. I think you are a very strong woman to deal with all this.

PS. I am just now catching up on all my commments for the last week...so I want to say that your list of things you accomplished the other day was awesome. Sometimes I am insanely proud of myself for getting normal mundane stuff done- like washing AND folding laundry....AND putting it up!!! WOOO HOOO!! LOL

Love ya chickie! Keep your chin up- I am praying for you.

momofonefornow said...

That just totally sucks. I am sorry to hear it. Very sorry.